Saturday, May 24, 2014


Lies, attacks, fiery darts of negativity and deception have been thrown at me left and right for awhile now. I began to believe those lies and forgot who I am, what I am and where I'm going. Got a fresh breath last night. Already, only an hour or so after, doubt and fear began to resurface. I wrestled all night with it in what I can only describe as a spiritual battle of epic proportions. Once I finally got some sleep, the war was still raging on keeping me from resting well. When I woke up this morning, I made the wrong move of checking my phone and Facebook before grabbing my Bible and I felt the war begin again. I'm stomping and squashing that NOW. Truth.
"The truth is... " may be a new thing for me. 
The truth is... I am NOT crazy. The truth is.... I am worth dying for. The truth is... only HE can provide my healing and only HE can provide the security and love I desire.

Thursday, May 1, 2014

Another Chance

I haven't blogged in awhile, obviously. I have an addictive personality. That means for me, that sometimes I go hard at things that interest me and then, when something else catches my eye, I sometimes tend to drop one thing and go after another. 
Had a little reality smack.
I thought I was just having back pain or a kidney stone but apparently I was quite sick. Two emergency surgeries and a week vacation at the hospital later, here I sit, tubes coming out of me, frustration mixed with thankfulness in the strangest brew welling up, not much to do but think way too much.
There's a reason for this, I'm sure of that.