Wednesday, February 5, 2014

I Need To Play The Background

I really need to take a step back here and consider my purpose and the purpose of this blog. I had the right idea a few weeks ago but I'm finding it easy to slip and try to simply emulate trends and other bloggers to boost traffic and that's not my goal. Just shows how quickly things can get off track if you ain't watchin' your step. I don't wanna totally lose my footing I'm establishing here so I'm having to spend some time in prayer over where I need to go with this blog and what my purpose is.

I realized today that my addictive personality can be dangerous even to this day. I promised I'd be delivering posts to you "squarely" and to me, that means being totally candid and including everything even if I don't wanna and being totally authentic, not leaving anything out. I gotta be real and admit that over the course of a week, combing through other blogs, reading articles on SEO, traffic analyzing and promotion have cut hard into my prayer and devotion time.

That's not gonna work. How am I going to keep my life and this blog heading in the right direction if I ain't letting God guide me?

Hit me hard this morning when I was trying to work out and LeCrae's song Background was playing. Here's some of the lyrics:

"It's evident You run the show, so let me back down. You take the leading role, and I'll play the background. I know I miss my cues, know I forget my lines. I'm sticking to Your script, and I'm reading all Your signs. I don't need my name in lights. I don't need a starring role.And why gain the whole wide world, if I'm just gon' lose my soul."
"So let me fall back and stop giving my suggestions. Cause when I follow my obsessions I end up confessing that I'm not that impressive, matter of fact I'm who I are. A trail of star dust leading to the Superstar."
"So I don't want to take the lead. Cause I'm prone to make mistakes. All these folks that follow me gon' end up in the wrong place. So, just let me shadow You, and just let me trace Your lines. Matter of fact just take my pen. Here, You create my rhymes. Cause if I do this by myself I'm scared that I'll succeed. And no longer trust in You, cause I only trust in me. And see, that's how you end up headed to destruction. Paving a road to nowhere. Pour your life out for nothing. You pulled my card, I'm bluffing, You know what's in my hand. Me, I just roll to trust You, You cause the dice to land. I'm in control of nothing. Follow You at any cost. Some call it sovereign will, all I know is You the boss."

I guess you could consider this a continuance to "Transparent Tuesday". I'll call it "What's Real Wednesday". ;)


  1. Thanks for stopping by my blog Sarah! I love that song "background" as well, and really appreciate your honesty!

  2. Thanks for coming and checking mine out! ;) Glad my transparency was appreciated! Have a blessed day!